A TRANSFORMED ME…

June 18, 2010

It has been a year since I last posted in my blog. I could think of a lot of reasons why, could be because I lost interest, or I got too busy. I don’t really remember now. BUT, I am back!

I am back because of a fire burning in me, a passion wanting to flow out from inside of me. I WANT TO SHARE AND WRITE ABOUT THEM…

So you might think what’s that?! or how’s that?! , well let me tell you my testimony. Well, here’s how…

Years ago, I was just like you. I wanted to finish my school. I wanted to earn money. I wanted to be happy. I wanted to enjoy life to the fullest. I would have a very hectic schedule almost everyday. I would go to work and I would meet up with friends. Everything was about fullfilling what I want in my life. Everything was about achieving my goals and desires for my life. I was very focused to be somebody because after all everyone else is trying to be somebody around me. I felt my pride and I felt I was special in my own right. I felt I was unique. I wanted the world. I was very into the world. It was all about success, pleasure and enjoynment. BUT … the more I crave for all these things, the  more I feel corrupted. I was being eaten by my goals and ambition in life. I was  being consumed by my desires to be successful. I felt my life is nothing but a wanting to be that person which I have been dreaming since I was young… a successful person. I got lost. I was just too proud. At one point I was an atheist. At one point I was a blasphemous. At one point I was very self-centered. At one point I lived a lustful life  …………… then suddenly I was just nothing.

I went into a tremendous struggle, a mutli-faceted struggle. My family broke down, I stopped schooling, my dreams got shattered away and I got lost. I was put in a situation no one would ever wish for. I was all alone. I was like a sheep lost in the wilderness who had to face lions, foxes and a whole lot of predators. I lost four years of my life wandering, searching, looking, struggling, wishful-thinking, regretting, and finding for the meaning of life. IT WAS NOTHING BUT BAD NEWS.

Little that I know of, there was a very interesting event that I would experience… I think of it now that after all there is a GOOD NEWS.  But I thought how about all the pains, hurts and wounds in my life. You don’t know what I have been to. The pains I had to bear. I was still reasoning, I was still somehow proud to reason out. But the GOOD NEWS is simply unbearable… It is contagious, It is  overwhelming, It is over-satisfying, It is more than I ever wanted. It was just too GOOD for a NEWS. It was too great. The greatest I thought. That NEWS was just too wonderful and too great that I indulged with it. I received it and I surrenderred to it. It was the NEWS of the LOVE OF GOD. Who am I, I thought not to acknowledge the LOVE of GOD. 

 YES, that’s right I acknowleged the LOVE of GOD in my life. I acknowledged and declared that He is my Lord and I am His servant.  It was so completing that my pains and hurts became love, care and compassion. It was so blessing that my self-centered righteousness and desires became a life of selfless service to the Lord. I am no longer alone. I am no longer a lost sheep for Jesus is my Shepherd now. 

From self-righteousness and from unrighteousness, now to God’s righteousness. 

This is the start of my life… a journey with God. 

 

 Amazing It was a transformation.